the wee guy has been ill off and on all week so sleep has been not that great. i'm busy with ebb and flo, christmas gift-getting, last shipping dates for the UK and general household maintenance. my hair is a mess, my skin is a mess, my clothes are a mess ..... all i really want to do is yell "stop" and let myself catch up.
i'm finding this very stop/start life as the mum of a busy pre-schooler very draining right now. there seems to be no time to settle down at anything as things can change at a moment's notice. i never know if i will have 2 minutes, 20 minutes or 2 hours for getting something done and frequently i have no time to myself during the day, without being interrupted by "mummy, come now, come and play with me!".
maybe he knows that school is just around the corner and that life will change, no more 'mummy and me' for days on end.
i love being a mum and this time i have at home with the wee guy is so precious but it's driving me nuts and exhausting me at the same time. i feel so selfish about the way i feel yet i know i need to carve out some quiet time/solo time/ me time too.
no one said it would be easy and easy it ain't!
i think the T shirt says it all
24.7.365=mom
from the amazing http://www.ninaandtom.com (go check them out pronto!)
... and then someone compliments me on my earrings (which i made myself!!) and nature throws me a most awesome sunset to cheer me up!
2 comments:
Ooohhhh Amanda, don't feel guilty for feeling the way you do right now! You are entitled. I know what its like and sometimes I just want to drive.....and drive....but then a while later the feeling and situation changes. Moms job is the hardest and the rewards pop up when we don't expect them. Hey you're just human! A sick child and lack of sleep do add on a heavier weight . You will get sleep again and the wee guy will get better... the sun will always come up! You are not alone....8)
Crystal
Thanx for finding me on facebook.
thanks Crystal - life still throws those overwhelming moments out but it still goes on!
(and it was great to find you on facebook!)
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