Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
yes, it's a vagina post - look away if you're scared of the dark
Midlife, midlife. Shall I count the ways I love thee?
Well, maybe I shouldn't waste may time counting the ways but spend it loving my vagina instead.
This morning I retweeted this from my blog reader. Yes, I have some great material to read over breakfast, but none as potentially terrifying as the thought of a midlife disappearing vagina act. Just when you thought that some things were immune to the forces of gravity, eh? According to Wikipedia (and is anyone else slightly perturbed at the face of Jimmy Wales looming over the dire warning of impending genital doom?) it happens in, around and in spite of the menopause. It's presented as a dead cert for anyone without a Y chromosome and accompanied by an eye-watering array of symptoms according to the Mayo clinic.
Fortunately, there are Things That Can Be Done. In short (and that's what your vagina will become if you don't take heed), please get ready for lubrication, dildos, sex over the age of 50, and oestrogen pessaries. It's also a great excuse for regular sex - What do you mean you've got a headache? Dammit man! My vagina's getting shorter by the minute - do something!
Have fun in midlife :)
Friday, November 25, 2011
... this is the view I saw. Beautiful clouds in the sunlight. Clear sky.
On my desk - literature review, homework assignments, admin. Outside - a wonderful sunny day.
My head has been well and truly down for what seems like an age. My nose has been stuck variously to the grindstone, inside a book, or pointed at the computer screen as I bash away at online work. I feel very withdrawn from life - it' s been necessary to sever connections so I can get this shitload of stuff done. As usual, I'm more productive if I disappear from my social media universe for a while. Let me rephrase - I have longer chunks of time to concentrate in if I ignore my online life, and time to concentrate has been what was needed recently.
But I miss online. I missed handing in an assignment on time cos I was offline/ignoring online! I miss online interaction. I miss tapping out a blog post or playing around with flickr or hunting down YouTube videos to embed. It's like a part of me is missing ... but no, not in an addictive way. I miss the creativeness of it all.
Only a couple more weeks of crazy.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
The answer is, not a lot. Life is too busy for rational thought right now and, although I'm not running on survival mode, it would be foolish to contemplate any Deep Thought. I think it's like asking my old desktop to run just one more program when the CPU is screaming, no! cannot handle anymore tasks.
So I won't.
Automatic can take over for a while.
I think I have enough in place to keep functioning for a while.
It's really only for another week or so.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
... and here's the photographer from yesterday's pic. Isn't he awesome? Well, I know you can't tell from where you're sitting but let me assure you, he is.
He's also struggling with behavioural issues at school. For the first time in a long time I had one of those, can we have a little chat after school? conversations with his teacher. It seems that his behaviour has been deteriorating over the last two weeks. We've also noticed this at home, and it can seem like we're walking on eggshells trying to keep him on an even keel.
But why now? We're not sure. It is colds season. Maybe his asthma has been playing up? Is he getting enough sleep? As usual, the answer isn't clear. It has also coincided with me being ultra busy, and unfortunately I think there is a correlation. He gets easily overwhelmed when life is busy and crowded, which of course it is all day at school. We just found out today that he's being teased/bullied by some kids at recess just because he reacts explosively when anxious. Of course, this makes it worse.
So, it's not just about space for me to get my act together, it's space for him too. We'll try teasing out the problems here at home, and in my best incredulous but still respectful voice, I've asked that he be switched from speech therapy (he sounds too english for the Canadian school system, I'm not making this one up) so he can visit the school counsellor again.
I dearly wish I could wave a magic wand and fix this once and for all. This is the fourth year running and I'm out of ideas. How do I help him get over this over-reaction and help him deal with being overwhelmed? How do I teach him to calm down instead of exploding with anxiety? How do I manage all this when I'm still learning myself?
Motherhood - continuous L plates.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Winter's closing in; the temp inside the house dipped to 63F during the day. I climbed inside two cardigans, swaddled into an extra pair of socks and broke the back of a particularly troubling homework assignment. Just where are my neural connections when I need them these days?
Recognising the no space/too much to do-ness of life right now is a Big Thing. The familiar "so what exactly are you doing with your life?" panics started up over the weekend (not helped by a particularly shitty selling moment which lasted all of Saturday and then returned on Sunday). Last year I would hurl myself frantically into action, trying to make it right ... this year, meh! I'll sort it later. I don't have enough headspace to think rationally about it.
Frantic life decisions are so last year.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Christmas has started.
I'll let that sink in a little.
Christmas has started. pomo mama design (me) has just finished the first day of the first seasonal craft fair. Sales were reasonable, not stellar, and I chatted with some wonderful shoppers. It's a great way to meet people - who knew there we're so many expats in the Tri cities?
Tomorrow is a later start than this morning's 6.45am wake up. Maybe we'll have waffles for breakfast?
It snowed up on the mountain today - christmas is closer than you think :)
Friday, November 11, 2011
I couldn't find my peace poppy this morning so my red poppy didn't have its usual company on my lapel.
Remembrance Day is an amazingly busy event in Port Moody. I believe this is so throughout Canada - I can't remember it being that big a deal back in the UK, though I do remember freezing outside the church in thin cotton Brownie/Guide uniforms not designed with a Scottish winter in mind. But in Port Moody, the centre of town comes to a standstill around the cenotaph as the local air squadron does a fly past of every legion ceremony in Lower Mainland. After Port Moody, the eight planes flying in formation veered off north over Belcarra and then on to Deep Cove.
The ceremony is a well attended event with a broad range of ages in the crowd. Little children sit on shoulders for the best view. Older couples stare resolutely into the distance. Couples my age clutch a young set of medals. After the official stuff, the Wee Guy and I took part in another peculiarly Canadian custom - we took off our poppies and pinned them on the wreaths.
Attending the Remembrance Day ceremony means much more to me now that I'm a parent. It's like a lot of other parts of life; it has so much more resonance now that I'm a mother. The names carved onto the monuments are now recognisable as sons and daughters.
I wish I could find my peace poppy.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Slaving away, making stuff. Trying to remember advice from my chiropractor about changing position every 20 minutes, and sitting properly.
Cardigan, Zara; silk top, handmade Babe in the Woods on Etsy
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
... and it was. No sense in being chilly, add in a pair of handknit socks in crazy stripes to complete the ensemble.
Voila! A smile on a no-nothing November day.
PS: don't forget - more cheer-you- up goodies available at this weekend's Archbishop Carney Craft fair. See pomomamadesign for the deets :)
Saturday, November 05, 2011
... to this! Christmas Marketplace opens this evening :):
Blackberry Artist's Society Christmas Marketplace Opening Reception, to be held in the Port Moody Arts Centre this evening starting at 6pm. Free entry, refreshments provided, shop till you drop ...
Have you seen what you want to buy yet? It's here ... but not for long ;)