grappling with career, balance and midlife in the midst of the domestic scene
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
Monday, November 12, 2018
Sunday, October 28, 2018
daily snapshot: October 28, 2018 at 10:01AM
Inktober's been the usual scramble of staying on top of posting an ink sketch a day for the month -- some that I'm proud of and some that just fill the slot. When I first started the challenge a few years ago I was meticulously drafting each sketch out in pencil before inking in and then erasing guidelines. This year, I'm less hung up about it and what you see is as the ink hits the page - there's no option to erase. So, there are hits and misses but I usually share everything regardless. To me, it's an interesting record of progress and what works; seeing the sketches in 2D gives me a better view of what works and where/how I can improve. Working directly without erasing also helps me trust my process, work with the spontaneous brush/pen strokes and translate what I see into marks on a page without getting hung up on how right they are. I feel like I am slowly getting towards a way of working, representing, portraying that is mine and not imitation. And this brings immense happiness! #i2f #gallebb
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Friday, October 12, 2018
Saturday, October 06, 2018
Tuesday, October 02, 2018
Sunday, September 23, 2018
daily snapshot: September 23, 2018 at 05:29PM
Marking up. Not everything happens at the first attempt. It's important to revisit, regroup, redraw, and grow. #portrait #oilpainting #charcoal #i2f
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Friday, September 21, 2018
Tuesday, September 18, 2018
Sunday, September 16, 2018
Saturday, September 15, 2018
Sunday, September 09, 2018
daily snapshot: September 09, 2018 at 09:08PM
Missed this one from the sketchbook; my subject has just finished his first week back at school and still looks relatively chilled. #sketch #pencildrawing #i2f #gallebb
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Friday, September 07, 2018
Saturday, September 01, 2018
daily snapshot: September 01, 2018 at 02:50PM
Those scary first steps that are so important to take. Just force yourself to put one foot/brushstroke in front of another... then stands back and take a critical look at what you've done, where you can improve, what to change and what is completely awesome (FWIW, right now I'm liking her nose and the shadow placeholders I've put in). #oilpainting #portrait #artistsoninstagram #flick #gallebb
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Monday, August 27, 2018
daily snapshot: August 27, 2018 at 05:25PM
Picture of bliss ... holidays agree with me; island life agrees with me; 53 agrees with me... #flick
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Sunday, August 26, 2018
daily snapshot: August 26, 2018 at 07:15PM
Happy place, where my hair matches the seas #flick #spt #thisis53❤️ Apparently people are happier near water ... Certainly true for this person.
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Thursday, August 23, 2018
Wednesday, August 22, 2018
daily snapshot: August 22, 2018 at 11:04AM
Vacation creativity #gouache over magazine print #collage #flick #gallebb Original image by Kelly Funk Photography
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Tuesday, August 21, 2018
Monday, August 20, 2018
Sunday, August 19, 2018
daily snapshot: August 19, 2018 at 01:57PM
Morning sketching #watercolour #cotmanwatercolours #artistsoninstagram #urbansketching #flick
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Sunday, August 12, 2018
Monday, August 06, 2018
daily snapshot: August 06, 2018 at 07:21PM
Working on something slightly different today - repurposed silk scarves from my stash and value village; working out placement and construction for a kimono jacket #365daycreative #sewing #upcycledclothing #silk #gallebb #flick
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Wednesday, August 01, 2018
Sunday, July 29, 2018
Saturday, July 28, 2018
Wednesday, July 25, 2018
Friday, July 20, 2018
daily snapshot: July 20, 2018 at 09:52PM
Trail run success Crystal Falls 8.7k round trip... And I'm still a mostly normal color #flick
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Sunday, July 15, 2018
flower watering, shared responsibilities and hiring a gardener...
these alliums? obviously watered well |
Going to therapy takes your time; sitting watching the kids play takes your time; reading a book takes your time; watering the flowers takes your time.
Yes, it's all self renewal, but if you're also doing all the caring for, concierging, arranging, monitoring, scheduling, managing, orchestrating and so on in your family, this is just one more item on your to-do list.
Since everyone benefits from all the care, scheduling, management, etc. and everyone else benefits from your self renewal - shouldn't they also put in some effort?
When does care for you, your relationship, your mental, intimate, physical self land on someone else's to-do list... and when does it get done? When do your flowers get watered so they bloom for both you and that someone else to enjoy?
And of course ditto...but then you're already doing that anyway...and it's exhausting. Maybe you've forgotten where your flowers are that need watering, or maybe you don't know what's going to bloom cos you've forgotten what you planted. Or maybe that particular garden bed is long gone through drought?
Whatever.
Plant some potatoes, or succulents, or drought-hardy grasses - just plant something that can thrive in whatever level of watering is available...heck! hire a gardener, but make it something you enjoy.
Leaving it bare earth is totally cool too cos maybe you've moved on to cats anyway!
Thursday, July 12, 2018
daily snapshot: July 12, 2018 at 02:42PM
sigh. so true recently. reeling from a few nights/days off neck pain and stiffness, headaches and exhaustion ... feeling much better today. amazing how not being in pain makes such a difference. hats off to my friends who deal with this on a daily basis
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Thursday, July 05, 2018
Weather Technology To Outpace Storms
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Tuesday, June 26, 2018
Tech to the Rescue for Endangered Marine Animals
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Saturday, June 23, 2018
Friday, June 22, 2018
daily snapshot: June 21, 2018 at 10:27PM
This evening has been magical. At around 8pm, I got a phone call from the emergency vet surgery. The new nurse there has been phoning everyone who has left property there. I didn't leave about but as many of you know, the last time I was there was when I took Rosco because he was so sick. Just over a year ago, he was euthanased and it broke my heart. I couldn't bring myself to phone to find out if his paw print had arrived; heard nothing so I thought it had been lost. But it hadn't. This evening, Thomas and I brought Rosco home.
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Thursday, June 21, 2018
Wednesday, June 20, 2018
RapidFinder STEC Detection Confirmed for Fast and Accurate Raw Beef Screening
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Saturday, June 09, 2018
daily snapshot: June 08, 2018 at 10:05PM
This evening's arting - testing out color swatches for the bigger portrait on a smaller quick sketch. Looks wonky but I'm pleased with my color choices. #oilpainting #portrait #artistsoninstagram #gallebb
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Monday, June 04, 2018
Sunday, June 03, 2018
daily snapshot: June 02, 2018 at 10:28PM
#oils on paper over #contecrayon sketch #artistsoninstagram not sure about my colour mix though #gallebb
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Sunday, May 20, 2018
Thursday, May 17, 2018
Wednesday, May 09, 2018
A Side Order of Virus Could Help Stop Salmonellosis
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Saturday, May 05, 2018
Monday, April 23, 2018
daily snapshot: April 23, 2018 at 07:55AM
#dogwoodweek16 portrait lighting :: giving this one a valiant try with natural lighting from a window for a selfie. I think this is narrow loop, but I fear it won't stick until I draw out the various lighting styles for my own reference #gallebb #spt
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Saturday, April 21, 2018
daily snapshot: April 21, 2018 at 04:55PM
Velocipede. I feel like I've been a bit quiet on social media recently. Lots of reasons - work, busy, spring break recovery, domestic was (it's a word), setting boundaries... they all take energy, so I've been in conservation mode.
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Friday, April 20, 2018
Reflect on Why Trees Are Important This Arbor Day
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Wednesday, April 18, 2018
Risk Assessment Tackles Foodborne Disease
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Monday, April 09, 2018
Sunday, April 08, 2018
on hold
waiting to get somewhere |
This morning as ever, I waited.
If I look back over the last quarter century or perhaps
earlier, I have spent a considerable amount of time and energy waiting –
waiting for significant others, for those I share my life with and wait for.
This morning was no exception.
Despite anticipating the events and presenting reminders to
pack essential items, to get dressed, to find the materials needed for the day,
I ended up again issuing the same reminders until they became nagging.
It still didn’t mean we avoided the anticipated events that
accompany leaving the house – namely, excessive waiting for someone else to be
ready – waiting for someone else to get their shit together – waiting for
someone else to do the things that had been suggested that would enable leaving
the house on time and in a calm and orderly fashion.
No.
We had tears and panic.
We had me waiting outside in the snow for longer than is
necessary.
We had me getting so fed up that I drove off for a spin
around the block to simmer down.
We had panic and hyperventilation when the car drew up to
house after its short journey.
We had a missing lunch. We had an extra and surplus bag.
We had a mum who lost her shit once more en route (and then
we had a dropped key, a wallet left
behind, interrupted and late settling down to work, dire warnings about not
visiting this shit on anyone else in the class, and in all a truly awesome
start to the day – a start that I had been anticipating and planning since
around 7am on how to avoid.
I wait. It’s my role in life apparently.
I wait for the penny to finally drop for my child that there
are consequences to not being ready, prepared – to leaving stuff till beyond
the last moment – to keeping someone perennially waiting.
I wait for domestic chores to be done. I wait before I ask,
knowing that they will rarely be done in a timely manner- a manner that
respects housemates, that avoids extra work being generated, that respects that
time is precious especially to someone who is kept from doing from they want
due to waiting for others.
I wait before asking as I know it will often be ignored, forgotten, dismissed.
I wait for household repairs and auto repairs, I wait
knowing that these are not ranked highly; I wait knowing that waiting risks
serious damage that will take more money and time and organization and danger
to fix, so I stop waiting and get it done myself.
I wait for household improvements, a simple shelf or bike
rack or sports gear hang up; I wait and see that these things also do not rank
highly. I wait knowing that clutter depresses only me, but that I will be
expected to wait for my relaxation until I find whatever it is that is lost in
the clutter and disorganization, to clean around the heaps, to move belongings
in order to sit, place, wait or stay. I wait knowing that simply wanting a
house to be beautiful or comfortable or organized or tidy is not worthy of
respect, and that there is always my time available to find, tidy, clean,
accept amidst the chaos.
I wait for the simple act of leaving the house; I wait for
gathering up the troops; I wait for reasons to leave the house together. I wait
for entertainment; I wait as opportunities are missed and jump out of waiting
and into doing so they aren’t missed.
I wait. I have waited so long that sometimes all I have to
do are the pieceworks that can be fitted into brief snatches of time spent
waiting – the tasks or projects that can be picked up and put down easily,
swiftly, on someone else’s schedule and immediacy and wants and needs and
priority. I have waited so long that it feels odd to prioritise ahead of -
overruling tasks, events, occasions, escapes – me first takes energy, altered
thinking, waiting for the moment.
I wait for my needs, carving out time in between to
recharge, re-energise without overlapping. I wait for mundanities – sleep, the
mailbox, light bulbs; I wait for the luxuries – intimacy, not being taken for
granted, availability – to each according to their needs, but not to mine. I
wait during explanations that this is all not unique to me. I wait while I try
to explain how much this matters; I wait after I explain how much this matters
for realization to dawn.
I wait for acknowledgement of the rising resentment at being
kept waiting that boils over.
I wait, and in so doing, I spend energy on waiting. I wait
and lose time to recharge so I can wait again.
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